To be or not to be!

Woke up on Saturday morning with a thoughtless mind. Seemed so good. As this was happening after a very long time, when i was waking up with no to-do plans and no regrets for not-yet-done things :)

I guess the 2 week break helped me.Granny thought i came there to be with her. I thought the same too. But i realized it was more for myself. I felt connected again. I was reminded that my presence mattered to some souls in this big bad(maybe not so bad) world.

My soul was rejuvenated. Now I realize that there is no greater pain in this world than that of feeling lonely, unwanted. I am not sure if these feelings were self imposed or just circumstantial. But that phase of life was toughest for me. I had never known loneliness. I had never been without friends or family. But in those lonely days, i realized the importance of 'being'. True, you can find new friends, new ways to live life. But you can never find yourself. Atleast its difficult.

But I am glad i have found myself. Yes, I am back. I am alive. I am laughing. I am dancing. I am living!

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Yuvika said…
Why have I not read this before :) I enjoyed reading your posts ;)
November 22, 2015 at 2:43 AM
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